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Once it was said: "I dreamed impossible dreams. And the dreams turned out beyond anything I could possibly imagine. You know, from my point of view, I'm the luckiest cat on the planet." So am I. I'm Maria, 22, and I cordially invite you to my personal Wonderland!

"Cosmopolis", filmed by David Cronenberg


“A person rises on a word and falls on a syllable.”
― Don DeLillo, Cosmopolis
As far as I know, the book "Cosmopolis" is pretty much frustrating. I could tell you more about it as soon as I'd finish it.
But what about the movie?! Oh, that's the moment when I can give a detailed review just because I'm still under the impression from it.

I have to admit that "Cosmopolis" surely can be called a masterpiece, because it really is the one. But this frustrating philosophical movie is not for everyone. The half of you would be bored from the first seconds; others - either shocked or totally confused. I can even bet you'd have a headache after watching it.
But (I have strong and strict "But" again) if you manage to feel a fine taste of Cronenberg's art - you won't regret it!

Shortly about the summary: The main character - Eric Packer is a 28 year old multi-billionaire. One day he left an apartment, penthouse, just to change his haircut. It all seems like an ordinary day, an ordinary way through the city...but not for Packer. A simple way to hairdresser turns out into 24-hours non-stop 'Odyssey': on his way, Eric met different people ( his wife Elise (Sarah Gadon), Didi Fancher, Eric's art consultant, with whom Eric has an affair (Juliette Binoche), his chief of finance (Emily Hampshire) with whom he has a quite long philosophico-financial chat and many others), witnessed the funeral of the favourite musician, whose music Eric plays in one of his two private elevators (how odd!). His car is like his office and a second home at the same time: he had sex with his art consultant there, had doctor's usual check-up in it, a meeting with his wifey, who refused to have sex with Eric etc. Packer killed his bodyguard just because he got bored of his 'over-safety' methods. And  how do you think this day should end - a total self-destruction by visiting a potential murderer.

I guess you are already pretty much shocked. How a young man with a future ahead of him, having money and all, can be that self-destructive?! How he can be that intellectually pretentious?!
I'm not well-acquainted with Cronenberg's previous works, but cold, stylish, arrogant "Cosmopolis" made me gasp, shiver at some moments and think...
Someone would say that "Cosmopolis" shows us our future, I dare to say it shows us our present days.
Girls, who are that in awe of Robert Pattinson,don't rush to see this movie, coz Eric Packer's character lies far from your romantic idol Edward Cullen. Moreover, I dare to say that was the first his really terrific, serious, a challenging one role!


   You are on the top; You have everything; You can easily buy everything; You can kill anyone with no care what life they have; You don't care about anything and anyone around...even about yourself.

"Cosmopolis" - a dificcult extraordinary drama to sit through, a hard one to comprehend. A story about apocalypse, not from the global warming, but individual's apocalypse.

Enjoy watching it, if you dare!)

Lust in Love

Can lust consume our thoughts?!
Can lust consume our mind?!
Down in deep,
Where feelings are lost
Can lust consume our heart?!..
Memories,
Again and again
Like cruel grenades
Are pumping out in the brain.
Memories,
Like lightning in mind...
Bliss!
And you're out of your life.
Bliss!
And you are trembling like whore,
Suffering from the tricks of your body,
Suffering from the tricks of your soul.
And every touch,
Every kiss,
Every stroke of your cheek.
Every breath and embrace,
Strong, but shattered heartbeat...
How long it could last?!
How far it could take?!
Satisfaction..
Desire..
We are powerless, overwhelmed.
Like Dominant and Submissive -
We are slaves of our wishes.
Aflamed with a passion,
Body's craving its redemption. 
And only 'partner in crime'
Can help to control your mind.
To hold a desire, 
Put all feelings in line
With lust in love and its power
To consume and combine,
To share, enjoy
A Sweet, sweet temptation.
 To want and delight
Lust in Love
In its pure form.
 To get and to give
The ultimate pleasure
Of sinful sensations. 




I Regret Nothing.

Je ne Regrette Rien - 
Regret Nothing!
For everything its time
And reason exists.
No matter whom you loved,
What you lost -
It will lead to something!
Life is not that simple:
Every choice,
Every deed -
It's what you are
And what you will be,
It's your own fate,
Don't doubt it!

The Game

In the shadows of memories,
Trying to say goodbye
To all these moments of happiness,
My heart is signing its lullaby.
To the feelings
that will never be deeper,
To the thoughts
that will never have trails.
To the minutes
I'd like to keep in,
To the hurt, 
that I'd like to forget.
Fairytale,
that will never have future.
Fairytale,
I was so believing in.
But it all has faded away,
Turning out into torture,
That I can't move on now,
I'm stuck right here, in between
With a hope that it's not the end.
With a faith
As the part of weird universe.
I'm stuck alone
In what it seems like hell.
I'm stuck, I'm lost
In the losing love game.